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Felt like sharing it. Gonna try to do this type of work more often.

Okay so I decided to start doing the sketchdump thing. With a digital camera. Not much to look at but meh.







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Ya know, forget everything I said yesterday. The fact I failed two classes no longer bugs me at all. Why?

Yesterday I was invited to a private party from a bunch of my friends from Black Student Union and Latino Student Association here on campus. Figured I'd go there and eat some food, play Twister, play some other board games, and just have a good time.

And then after we got done playing "Apples to Apples" Jaquie tells everyone to quiet down and makes a big announcement. She thanks everyone for coming out and then goes on to say that the real reason they held the party was for me and then she takes the giant covering off this table and underneath is a bunch of presents. I thought I was going to cry. I could not believe it. I was just so overwhelmed. They all bought me shoes, clothes, a watch, and other stuff and I was just touched beyond words. They told me the reason they had done this was because they appreciated the work I had done for BSU and LSA and because I did so not for myself but because it was the right thing to do. I thanked them all from the bottom of my heart and we had a great rest of the night. I feel so incredibly blessed to have friends like that. Much love to all my friends and to anyone that reads this.

ANGRY OBVIOUS STATEMENTS ARE ANGRY

Fuckin' hate Chemistry. Fuckin' hate Calculus. Hate all math in general. I'm never going to use this shit in my life. Thank the godz I have the discipline to simply retake this dumb shit and be done with it. Gonna step in a new direction and learn coding and the finer points of stuff like PS and Flash and cultivate the bit of art I got.

Wow. I don't think I've ever had a night so full of emo and fail all semester. My head still hurts from it all. I literally laid on my bed from 11:45 at noon the previous day till 5:30 next and the whole time my head was pounding and I was...I dunno. Imagining shit. Nothing like hearing a child screaming and realizing your the only one that hears it. Or seeing the darkness in your bathroom actually *move*. Or drifting unconscious and hearing a child's screams again and then hearing yourself scream cause you got fubared somehow and it hurts so damn much. I could hardly do more then take a walk down the hallway before feeling vertigo. Ugh. I think its mostly gone now but my head still throbs. I don't ever want to relive this kind of thing again.

Thanks for reading to all that do. Peace be with ya and I seriously hope none of you experience something like this.

Yeah so....update.

I am in crunch time. Not sure exactly what will occur in the next two weeks but I can only hope I won't get my ass kicked by finals and such. In the meantime...

I am going to quite possibly jump on bandwagon and do the 25 dragons deal under one condition: I do not want to hear you bitch because it takes me forever to get around to it. So yeah. Keep your eyes peeled if you're interested.

Different avatars. Get.

Peace be with ya people.

CSS would be nice too now that I think about it.